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February 18, 2012
Saturday, 5:22 PM
It’s been quite a while since I’ve been on this. Honestly, I could be on it everyday, but I just don’t want to because that requires extra work because the only way I could go on is through my mom’s iPad. And to make a text post, that is takes a long time.
This family shit is ridiculous. It’s tearing everyone down. My dad keeps blaming my mom for everything, telling her that she’s tearing the family apart. When he’s not telling her that, he’s telling her to come home, that he loves her, and that everything wouldn’t be the way it is if we would just come home. He wants to hang out with me, spend time, and while I understand that he misses me or whatever, I don’t want to hang out with him. We’ve never had the normal, ‘cliche’ father-daughter relationship. We’ve never really hung out or had a good conversation. And to be honest, I don’t mind it being that way. Even if that makes me an ignorant, stupid bitch.
I just hate all of this. Can’t this all just end?
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February 3, 2012
Friday, 11:00 PM
Well, I haven’t been on in over about a week I think. I could have, but I just didn’t feel like it. It’s been the longest week. Yesterday I was talking to the school counselor and started feeling sick, so I went home during lunch. I didn’t go to school today either. I could’ve but I didn’t feel like it, and I’m currently at my sister’s.
But other than that, today was alright. I finished up the book Modoc - such a great book. I recommend it.
My mom and I went to dinner at my Nana’s and Papa’s house, along with Karma, Ray, and Triss, a family friend. There, after my mom left, Malachi took a step to my Nana’s favorite chair. Then, he turned and walked 4 or 5 steps towards me. It made me so happy. Karma screamed with excitement and we all clapped and cheered for Ray. It was nice. (:
And now I’m here. It’s been a while since I’ve stayed up this late. I’ve gone to bed around 10 each night, sometimes even 9 or 9:30. Anyway, I think I’m gonna head off.
Goodnight everybody.
Your “Friends”
It makes me so irritated when people say that they have no friends, or that all their friends aren’t really their friends, or when they can’t get their best friend(s) straight.
Listen, when you talk to me and say that you have no friends, fuck off because I’m right here. Talking to you. I’m not your friend? Fine, okay. Then you’re not my friend. You’re friends aren’t really your friends and they don’t invite you anywhere? Fine, okay. They don’t invite you anywhere because you always say no when they ask you personally to hang out because you don’t feel like doing anything. Invite yourself for once, and if they don’t let you, then you know how it feels.
Oh, you don’t have any friends, but you have a best friend(s)? Fine, okay. At least figure out who that is. You say that this person is your best friend, but then I’m your best friend, but then these other people are best friends, and then this person is your best friend. Whenever you get a fucking boyfriend, you lie to yourself by saying he’s your best friend because you want it to work out. And then you start ditching your other friends.
I can’t even explain half my feelings right now. I don’t have any idea what else to say next. I just hope this makes my point.
January 22, 2012
Sunday, 2:14 PM
I just got out of the shower. Karma, Lucas, and Ray went for a walk and went to Subway. I didn’t want to go because it’s quite a ways down there and it’s chilly outside. I decided to stay here and take a shower instead. I’m waiting for my mom to pick me up so we can all eat at my auntie’s house - homemade mash potatoes and turkey you just can’t turn down. (:
Now, I’m just sitting here listening to my new favorite song: World at Large by Modest Mouse. It reminds me of summer, and it’s just a feel good tune. It makes me smile, honestly. I’m also skimming through a Comsopolitan magazine that Karma left laying around. It’s interesting enough, I suppose.
Good day, everybody.
January 21, 2012
Saturday, 9:58 PM
Today has been uneventful. The only thing I’ve done was gone up to my oldest sister’s house. I don’t get Karma, my oldest sister. She does not know how to make good decisions. She has a child named Ray; he will be 10 months in two days. Can you believe it? He’s almost a year old.
All my sister and Ray’s dad, Lucas, have been doing are watching Lost the entire day. They’re already half way through season 2, and they’ve only been watching the show for two days. I’m kinda liking it so far, but it’s a pretty…weird show.
And anyway, yes, this is an anonymous blog. I do have another, but I will never give it out and I will never tell you my name. This blog is for secrets, opinions, rants, confessions, thoughts, and anything else that I want to post. I will try to keep the photo posts to a minimum. Now, I am logging off.
Goodnight, everybody.
